When I called my parents yesterday to tell them my pup Mary had died, I told them I wanted to try and work to take my mind off of it. But my Mom told me to go ahead and let myself cry. Mourning is important.
So I took her advice and spent the day mourning Mary.
I can tell you yesterday was rough. Once it hit me, I cried a lot – so much so my eyes were burning and tired by evening.
Around noon yesterday, I started to get up from my desk to let the dog out. It wasn’t until I was halfway out of my chair that I remembered she wasn’t here.
The house felt unusually still and empty.
You don’t realize how much life and energy a dog brings to your home until she’s gone. Since I spend 99% of my time here at home, Mary was so much a part of my life here, I imagine it’ll take some time for me to adjust to the absence of her.
And it was the little stuff that got to me the most yesterday. Walking into the living room and not hearing the clip-clip-clip of her nails on the floor as she trotted behind me. Not having Mary pop up at the pass-through window in the kitchen at dinner time. Willow is a great cat, but she isn’t big enough to pop up at the pass-through window to watch me get her dinner ready.
It was the absence of all those little things that had me mourning the loss of my beautiful dog.
Watching her roll around like a goofball in the backyard.
The way she and Willow would grudgingly share space under my desk while I worked.
This is what I am mourning – the loss of her.
Who’s going to chase after me when I mow the lawn?
Who’s going to jump up on my bed to say good morning when I wake up?
It’s definitely going to be a long period of adjustment.
I want to thank you guys for all the kind words and good wishes you sent my way since Mary passed. It was a tonic. Many of your messages made me cry. But, as my Mom reminded me, crying is a part of mourning.
I buried my beautiful Mary in the garden beside her kitty sister Buffy. The absence of her hurts my heart. But the memories of her will always be with me.
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