I lost my pup last night

I lost my pup last night

Last night, sometime during the night, I lost my pup Mary.  It was sudden and completely unexpected.  The only sign I had that she wasn’t well was she tossed up her supper shortly before we went upstairs to bed.

But if I had a dollar for every time my pup got into something in the backyard over the last ten years that upset her tummy and made her puke, I could buy a month’s supply of dog food.

And since puking in and of itself is not unusual, I didn’t worry overly much when it happened.  Aside from that, she seemed fine.

But when I woke up this morning, my pup was gone.

It hasn’t really sunk in yet that I just lost my pup – a pup I’ve had for almost ten years.  I’m sure it’s going to hit me like a freight train at some point this morning. But right now, I’m just numb.

Mary was two-weeks shy of her tenth birthday.

I adopted her on October 22, 2010 when she was four months old.  I had been hoping to adopt a new dog, but figured when the right dog came along, she would find me. And she did. Mary was a stray found wandering around the streets of Solvay by a good Samaritan who brought her in to the animal hospital where my friend worked.  My friend texted me saying, “I think I found your new dog.”

I went up to the animal hospital the next morning and met Mary for the first time. It was love at first sight for both of us. We have been inseparable since. When I still worked for the landscape construction company, Mary came to work with me. After a while, the guys started calling her the Company Mascot.

I can’t imagine life without my pup because, honestly, it feels as if she’s always been here. And now she’s gone.

I think it’s starting to sink in now.

Oh, Mary.  I’m going to miss you so much.

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28 thoughts on “I lost my pup last night

  • June 8, 2020 at 7:21 am

    We share in your sadness in the loss of Mary – bathing your sorrows in prayer.
    Psalm 34:18-19
    The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
    and saves the crushed in spirit.
    Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
    but the Lord delivers him (her) out of them all.

  • June 8, 2020 at 7:45 am

    Damn, I hate that!

    In my 80 laps ’round the shiny thing in the system center, I’ve had and lost dozens of pets. It hurts.

    Commiserating with folks for the loss of parent or spouse or child is something I simply avoid, ‘cuz I’m not good at it.

    But I always feel compelled to sympathize with someone’s loss of a furry friend, even if I don’t know the person or the pet.

    My sincere condolences.

    • June 9, 2020 at 1:49 pm

      So sorry 😢 I’ve buries 3 dogs in my yard over the years. It’s very hard. Now my eyes are leaking for you Dianny

  • June 8, 2020 at 7:57 am

    Most of us know your pain. We are with you in spirit.
    One breath at a time.

    • June 8, 2020 at 7:31 pm

      Godspeed, Mary. Make sure you find Dianny in heaven.

  • June 8, 2020 at 7:57 am

    So, so sorry to learn of this. A shock indeed. You gave her a wonderful home, I’m sure, filled with love, gratitude and T.L.C. Remember One Day At A Time….you are never alone. Germ free Joisey hug to you. Anonymous

  • June 8, 2020 at 8:18 am

    So sorry,
    It’s the worst.. take comfort in the truth that you gave her a wonderful life. Feeling her loss deeply is respectful and an honor to her… only then, the feeling can shift to gratitude..
    Sending prayers

  • June 8, 2020 at 8:59 am

    Thinking of you! Your best friend will be waiting for you one day. Until then, remember the love, not the pain of losing her.

  • June 8, 2020 at 9:24 am

    Oh my goodness. I can’t even…
    I’m so sorry, Dianny.
    She’s such a sweetie.

  • June 8, 2020 at 9:27 am

    Two days stand out in a pet owners life – the day you pick them up and the day you lose them.
    BUT the days in between give us the memories that sustain us.
    Feeling your pain, I’m sorry.

    • June 8, 2020 at 1:26 pm


      well said!

  • June 8, 2020 at 9:42 am

    I’m so sorry. My condolences to you. I know the feeling of losing a dog. They really are man’s best friend. My prayers go out to you.

  • June 8, 2020 at 10:03 am

    I pray that your memories of your dear friend will comfort you. My cats have been my friends at times when I felt friendless, my confidantes, and my teachers. They helped me keep my sanity while raising two girls through the teenage years and through rocky times in my marriage and with my parents. My latest friend is a little black kitty, Frodo. He will be 16 next week and is helping me learn about growing older. He still thinks he is a kitten, but at the end of the day, sometimes groans as he curls into his bed, just like me. We commiserate at the unfairness of achey bones and joints when we still feel so young in our hearts. I truly believe that our animal friends are our little angels watching over us and teaching us truths about life. Take good care.

  • June 8, 2020 at 10:28 am

    Here’s to all the years. To all the smiles, And all the tears.
    We will meet again to love and laugh And wag our way down the Rainbow Bridge.


  • June 8, 2020 at 10:40 am

    I am so sorry. Wish I could give you a hug. I’ve been through that awful experience with cats over many years. Fred, Barney, Wembley, Parker, and Grayson. I remember each and always will. The pain of loss means only that the love was Real and Strong. To avoid the pain means to avoid love and that is not an acceptable alternative. Chloe (my cat) and I send our love.

  • June 8, 2020 at 11:03 am

    Still, could she have had a better owner?

  • June 8, 2020 at 11:19 am

    I am so sorry. You are not alone in this but it probably feels like you are. She was a beautiful girl and try to remember that she knew you loved her. It’s not going to be easy – we all know that – but Godspeed.

  • June 8, 2020 at 11:26 am

    I am so sorry to hear that you lost your beloved Mary…. It makes me cry to just think about. I dread the day I have to deal with that with my Tyson Thanks for being open and honest about your feelings…..

  • June 8, 2020 at 12:54 pm

    I once heard a wise answer to ‘what is the kindest thing to say to someone who has just lost a loved one?” The answer,  “I don’t know what to say.” Dianny, I don’t know what to say.  All I know is the pain felt losing a pet, especially a dog, can even be worse than losing a person.  I’ve been where you are.. so very difficult. But, she was one lucky dog to have you as her owner. 

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  • June 8, 2020 at 12:57 pm

    so sorry for your loss, losing a pet is just as deep and sorrowful as any other loss, and maybe deeper, they are our friends, our confidants, our fitness gurus, our shrinks, our pillows, our bed buddies, our alarm systems, and our pure joy, pure joy,,,,,,will be praying for you in this time

  • June 8, 2020 at 2:12 pm

    I’m sure you brought as much joy to her life as she did to yours. God bless Mary. Until you meet again….

  • June 8, 2020 at 2:13 pm

    And as I knelt beside the brook
    To drink eternal life, I took
    A glance across the golden grass,
    And saw my dog, old Blackie, fast
    As she could come. She leaped the stream-
    Almost-and what a happy gleam
    Was in her eye. I knelt to drink,
    And knew that I was on the brink
    Of endless joy. And everywhere
    I turned and saw a wonder there.

    John Piper (Justified Forevermore)

  • June 8, 2020 at 2:45 pm

    So, so sorry to hear this news. Take care.

  • June 8, 2020 at 3:08 pm

    So sad to lose a family member. May the joy she brought you over the years ease the pain of losing her.

  • June 8, 2020 at 3:26 pm

    Oh Dianny, I’m so sorry. What a shock.

  • June 8, 2020 at 8:57 pm

    I feel for you. I can’t take the saying goodbye anymore. I’ve had to put mine down because they were so sick. I’ve stood there holding them, crying my eyes out and apologizing for what I had to do. I can’t do that again.

  • June 9, 2020 at 9:27 pm

    So very sorry Dianni for your loss of Mary. Perhaps the very best friend mankind possesses. A friend said to me on my pups loss……when you love hard, you hurt hard.
    Remember the love you had for each other.

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